안녕 다들! ^.^
I`m feeling well today! My sickness is almost gone!
And on top of that all I read wonderful things about our “always keep the faith” on twitter & Monbrille said something really interesting and true:
“kpop that show us the innocence of their artists because we were /are tired of the sexy/slutty american image of the american idols”
This reminds me of the story how I came to K-Pop: 5 or 6 years ago, when I first came to J-Pop (more exact: Utada Hikaru) I always talked about her as a person who makes “perfect pop music”. I came over k-pop accidentally, more or less.
But in the end, K-Pop is the end of a long mucial journey of mine. Since I was young I was tired of the german music, So I checked out what`s up in america. But besides Linkin Park nothing lasted long. Linkin Park was the first “fandom” (well, thinking about it it was never really a fandom for me like I know the meaning of fandom today) I really belonged to.
Through a member of the fort minor forum I even found out about Mike Shinoda`s ICQ (number). I cannont remember how I managed it to get this number. I searched like a lunatic for days for some traces of this issues in the internet and once I knew where to find… yeah. I thought this was the coolest thing ever and added mike to my list. But up to today I only watched him on ICQ. I was too shy say anything to him ^//^ Somehow you can say he was… my first bias when I was young. I practically grew up with listening to LP`s music.
But after I got a shock after the release of their… let`s call it “album” with a “… I was tired of american music. Really, totally tired. You can say I was frustrated, a little bit shocked and much like “WTF!”. Some ppl still praised LP, but as a longtime-over-the-years fan I just thought that this last album was… not what I expected. Not a bit. It was… >< not good. It could have been a concept (and as that not a good one either >< Sorry), but to release this “something” as an album? OTL WTF!
Always remember kids: As a fan you are not bound to think everthing your idol does is -great-. As a fan you can and should always be honest with your idols and yourself. You can say if you don`t like something. It`s not a crime or so.
But the main point here was that I was frustrated. Now even my fav band disappointed me like that? I felt very restless. I startet searching for other J-pop again. I always had the feeling that there`s something “more” in this world of music. I found JAY’ED, Aoyama Thelma and… I started watching more Anime`s again and finally, there was T-ara! And then DBSK! OMO! SuJu & SHINee. (to only list up the first ones)
I felt like in heaven!
I was like “ooooh mi gawd! I found my home! *dies*”
And on top of all something I really could call home as a fan: Cassiopeia.
It was all so different from the times being a fan of someone before. It was more real, more familiar, more personal. Finally I had a big family that welcomed me with open arms although I was a newbie.
Here I am now. OT5, with still big faith in these complicated days and I regret nothing!
At this point I have to mention Cynthia & Emmy again.
My soulmatesister Cynthia #soulmate… well, we are 10 years apart in age, but our souls sure are not. Like my best friend she`s a person I would trust with everything. Tell her everything. Entrust her with looking after my pets when I`m on holidays. I would even give her my freakin’ key to the house! I… just can feel that I can trust her. Yeah. Crazy, né? I feel like that for a person I haven`t even met yet. But I just know I can trust her. She`s my sister, like my real sister *glomps Cynthia*
And Emmy… ooooh, my pretty adopted kid! I love her hair and her eyes^^ OTL I love her! Ai! I`m such a belssed Unni-mom! I have such a pretty kid! Pretty inside and outside! (@ Emmy: Everyone who wants to tell you otherwise is lying!). I never had such a big feeling of friendship for someone. And I haven`t even met her either, but I`m surely not afraid that she will be out of reach someday *glomps Emmy* because… it`s not like I would let her go somewhere ㅋㅋㅋ ;D
In cassiopeia I found some really good friends. I think the best friends of my life besides my best friend. Especially those two (and I know they are reading this ^^) are in my heart.
I even started crying faster as I could think about what was happening here when she said she eventually wants to leave. I was really afraid that I would never see her again.
And thinking about the possibility I could lose my soulmatesister is… an unthinkable thought. You know what I mean?
Cassiopeian ppl are deep inside my heart. I really love them.
oh my, I almost begin to cry again. *rubs eyes* I`m always like that, each time when I try to capture my feeling of sisterly love in words. I never find the right words, so let`s stop with that here.
*looking at Han`s WEIBO update* XDD oooh, I see Han! You are busy! (with tons of foods in front of him) his comment: “Do not disturb me, I`m busy!” *lol* Yes, I see Han! I see that! ^^ eat well~
But when I`m talking about Han already: Watched the MV for “Fire” on my Mac yest and today this song was played in my car. yeah well… loud an proud of course XD The city knows HanGeng now! (at least I hope so )
Watchig the MV and hearing the song brought back my love for this song and especially for Han even more! I`m still here, waiting for his second album. Hopefully, when he acted enough for now *haha*, he comes back with his second solo album! *big eyes* after all he said, I`m sooo curious!
and #justsaying: Han becomes such a BEAST 0n stage/in his MV`s when he`s dancing! Really, if I wouldn`t know it better… ^__^ + his MV`s are so… special in some way. I repeat myself when I say: It`s art. Han`s own art. ^^
But HanGeng and his acting… >//< omo! This one special scene in this drama won`t leave my mind anymore! Although he said it was embarrassing somehow and kinds hard to do… but! 어 . 머 . ! .
His first intimate scene!
Really, this was too hot! I only saw the picture but… AIGOO! It was hot! >//<
And now, because I`ve never shared it and most of you most likely never saw it: some MV`s!
Han`s “Fire” MV!
HAN! Your such a BEAST! ^^ *thubs up* I love his always different looks and I cannot stop watching him dance! I don`t know what you think sisters, but this is art! (and this was basically the only thing besides -awesome- I ever said about Han`s work!)
I freakin’ love his MV`s!!! aaaaand: Han`s the fire god ^^ Ah haha! reminds me of Yunho in KYHD (SME, you stole the idea from HanGeng`s MV? How poor! XD just kidding, but… yeah well… WHO KNOWS! It`s SME after all! So nothing`s impossible.)
Han`s “My Logo” MV!
Aaawweeeesooooommmmeeee! I love that the female dancer is not some kind of bitch like we see it in american MV`s *rolleyes* I`m so tired of this america sh*t, I cannot even tell you how much! >< (sorry american ppl, it`s nothing against you, I just hate such b*tchy american MV`s >__> Han really did a great job!
He and that girl towards the end… *.* that`s hot! (without being slutty even a bit – that`s how I appreciate it ^^)
Han`s “Queen” MV (with eng subs) aka how I have fallen in love with Han (or more like: His solo work) by only hearing the first 40 seconds back then ^//^ *confession*
This song is still in my head. I cannot get it out of my thoughts anymore! Totally in my head like… forever. Like “Fire” or “Say no”
I heard this song totally by accident. I found it on a side I was searching for something of another matter but I saw such a litte thingy at the end of an entry clicked on the play-button. In the end I ended up raping this button for the next hour until I went to bed ^^° *LOL* REALLY!
And last but not least: This…
I cannot read chinese, but: Is this comeback news? Han, are you really going international? PLEASE COME TO GERMANY AGAIN! (but this time not just for a visit 😉 OTL want to see you live! >< but this will not happen soon, né? Aigoo…)
*hopeful eyes* *hoping for comeback* *fan of HanGeng_official*
+ it was said that HanGeng started to learn english a while ago and he said before that he wants to bring some european and american influence into his work and that he listens to this kind of music. Well, maybe he learned english because of that? ^^ oooh! Only thinking about it makes me more and more curious for his second album! #HanComeBackNow! ^^ *creating useless twitter tag here on the blog*
I hope you enjoyed our little journey into Han`s/a Han fan`s world ^^ Our chinese man is really doing an awesome job down there in China! He should be more popular among the k-pop fans in general. Mr. “Simple person” (yes, that`s a song on his album) is still part of the mr. simple group in many ppl`s hearts.
So again: Let`s love HanGeng a little more! *(ˆωˆ)*
If you want to see more MV`s: there are some more MV`s out there on YouTube. OTL I should watch these MV`s on DVD again (there was a DVD with the MV`s on it in the 1st album)
*still reading my tl*
Brian: “요즘 뮤지컬 연습때문에 너무 정신없고 스트레스 많이받소있지만… 오늘 오랜만에 @siwon407 한테 전화와서 위로에말을 들어서 좀 기분 좋아지고있어요… 시원아~ 고맙당 내 동생아^^ 사랑한다 브라덜~”
Siwon: “@Brianjoomuzik love you more =) you always in my pray bro!”
Brian: “@siwon407 Brothers for life, brothers in Christ, and Brothers forever^^ Miss ya”
Siwon-ah, Brian Oppa… could it be that you two are some kind of… soulmates too? You sound just like my soulmatesister and me when we are having our lovebattles! *^^*
Just sooooo cute! I love it when they are doing this! It`s just so mega cute! *pinches them again*
Ah, what a nice day on twitter today! *haha* XD and what was that? Siwon telling BoA that he`s not a womanizer XD oh, really, Siwon, at least noona never believed you are one. What BoA is teasing you for I don`t know ;P
Nu, wait!! Thinking about it… wae was Siwon tweeting a pic of Hyukjae with the hair of a woman XDD OMO! Does this mean Siwon got them both? (I mean both of EunHae)
Then it`s a clear thing wae BoA teased him and he replied “I`m not a womanizer” XD Poor EunHae, you got both used by prince charming XD
Oh my, Siwon, where will this end *haha* (so is that wae he wasn`t killed by Hyukjae for this -girlfriend- thing? Because EunHae are both Siwon`s girlfriends now? XDD omg! Please someone stop my weird fangirl-mind ^//^ *scenarios already in my head*)
And on top of all: I have to worry less about Heenim Oppa.
Yeah well, as you all know: I thought about the whole military thing a lot. Especially lately. And I`m worried about persons like JJ or Heenim Oppa.
But just take a looka at this:
Heechul is going to be a public service worker
Look on the bright side. Heechul will be a public service worker which means that after completing 4 weeks of training, he can live at the dorm. So he’s still going to see the members every day.
One becomes a public service worker rather than a soldier if his physical condition does not meet the standards. A public service worker lives at home. It’s similar to having a 9 to 5 job.
Okay, at least that`s something. So we don`t have to worry that much about our Heenim Oppa. I was already in great worry because… nah, we all know our Heenim Oppa… It would really scare me if he would have been forced to be in the army for 2 years ><
Aigoo, aigoo… you thought about that? We will be Heenim Oppa deprived soon don`t exactly know what to think about that. 😦
It will be weird when he`s not around anymore… somehow… (lucky as we are he will come back after a while – 4 weeks to go girls! for luck only 4 weeks!). I really hope he will be fine during these 4 weeks.
Let`s wait and see what will be with our boys. Maybe Yoochun will got he same way? Who knows! I would also like to know what`s with the other boys (of SuJu and our 5)
And talking about our boys: Since a short while JYJ are officially unaids ambassadors! Well, the Jeju-thing was pretty much… errr… wasted time. So at least one ambassadors-thingy is working out well! KBS, f*ck off. Go away and we will never talk about this issue again. (I`m tired of it anyway)
Yeah well, that`s it for today ^^ Now I have to update my mac (system updates) an have to do a restart 😉